My days are starting to blur together. I don't even know what day it is anymore sometimes, and I really am relying on my blog now to tell me which days are which. Although I am now more in control of my days because I have been telling myself that God will guide me, and to just "Keep the Faith". I have been putting my trust and all my burdens in Him lately, and it really has been helping me a lot to cope with my anxiety.

I woke up last night at around 1:22am. I was not anxious or anything, but my mind was just fully awake. Instead of stressing about it, I told myself that I will eventually fall back to sleep when I was tired, and just to let it ride. I watched Justice League last night, and woke up with my headphones still on. I woke up refreshed, and no anxiety about not being able to sleep all night.

This morning at work, I was more productive too. Usually I struggle with which task I am supposed to do first, taking me about 15 minutes to decide. But today, I found that I was more organized in days of being scatter brained. Yza invited me to her Full Moon Circle session after work and I was really excited about it.

#1 Because she will be leading the session.
#2 I needed something to relax me and get into the right headspace with someone guiding me how to do it.

Tonight is the Libra Full Moon. Peace, love and serenity are the order of the day on April 7 (today) as the 2020 Libra full moon shines overhead (at 10:35 PM EDT). Having a full moon at the last degree of a sign means that you will feel a strong urge to finish something, to release the old, and illuminate a new path forward. The sign of Libra, ruled by the planet Venus, is all about creating balance, harmony, and keeping the peace.

We had a guided session led by my friend and office mate, Yza, and it was a really good session. We meditated, we did yoga, and we reflected. Our circle opened up and learned from each other how we are letting go of all the negativity that we are all facing, not only with the current crisis, but negativity in our lives. It was really refreshing to have someone guide you to reaching inner peace and sending out love and good vibes to the people you love and the universe.


Tonight, I want to reflect on how I relate to people when I am calm, and how it differs to when I am triggered and go on a downward spiral. I think a lot of people can relate to this. When I am calm and everything in my life is on track and going according to my plan, I am patient and understanding when interacting with other people. But of course, when I am triggered and on my way to a downward spiral, I can't find myself to talk to other people. I am consumed by my own negative thoughts. Everything is dark, and I can hardly comprehend anything.
One of my tools for dealing with such is a mantra that was taught to me by my dad, "Keep the Faith." It's basically leaving everything to higher power because really, we cannot control everything. I have to tell myself that there are things that are beyond my control, and I just have to leave it up to Him. I promise to do the best I can, and just concentrate on things that I can control and just let it go.

This is an excellent time for self-reflection. I read that while New Moons are about setting intentions, Full Moons beg us to re-evaluate our status in life. How far along are we in the goals we set in the past? If we haven’t been working on them, what’s holding us back?

Knowing this, this could also indicate a time to further communicate with someone very dear to me. Going deeply into my connection with that someone can be hard at times, but this could also mark a breakthrough in our partnership if I can keep their best interests in mind and play fair. I have until tomorrow to figure everything out, and just let it go and move on. Anxiety is all about letting things go and moving on.